THOM

how long is a moment?

something i’ve never really had to deal with before. i still have both parents, both grandmothers & 1 grandfather (my pops never knew his dad, subsequently, i never knew the nigga either so his cuban ass don’t count in this). i don’t know what it feels like to lose a family member or a friend. i mean, yeah, people i’ve known across the years have indeed died, but none to the effect of bringing me any serious despair, with the exception of my 98 year old great grandfather a few years ago (that don’t count cuz he was ready).

i talk about this tonight because the thought that i would be familiar with this experience just feel upon me. i got a frantic call from my dad telling me to call home (‘home’ being Trinidad & Tobago where he is from) because grandma suddenly isn’t doing too well. i don’t wanna get into the details of the situation, however i will say that, she didn’t sound like herself; at all.

it scared the fuck outta me. idk how to or if i can handle that kind or loss. i hope shes ok in the morning.